A Gay Guy About Life

I was thinking that I can't avoid to keep me away from the chat, .. it's true I'm really looking forward to meet a guy ,to have a date .Sometimes I feel so desperate and I dunno why, maybe the facts is that I can't be alone, I 'm feed up having one night stand, I did, I enjoyed but now I feel different , I'm looking for something different that keep my fire burning).
But the thing that I really don't like, that really piss me off it s when the guys are unable to be straight , to catch the point to have courage to say what they are really looking for ... a shag or a date !!!! They lie at themself and us and afterwhich all the things going wrong and someome will be hurt ... argh why things can't be ssimplest???

Well I actually I don't have clue what I just wrote up here never mind tomorrow will be another day.

" Okay I guess ... sorry things didn't work out with us but its nice to stay in touch"

" My fault ... not ready for anything right now. But U shouldn't change anything about you as u are perfect the way you are :-)"

That the way the things going down , let's say How to be dumped by text ! .....
Here we go its happen again, I was dating this guy and even if I wasn't in love yet ( Fortunately) I really liked the idea to be.
He was so kind, sweet , there was a good feeling and I had such good time. Honestly I didn't push him towards a relationship it was just a date a simplest way to know each other. One night he introduced me his best friend during a dinner ,actually planned just for us , ( so totally unexpected ) and later on we moved in other club where i met all his friends and the twin brother.
I felt so embarrassed cause on the first stand i didn't realized what's was going on and they were all focused on my asking everything like a preliminary job interview. Well I just tried to take it easy and I did at last I was fine.

My best Friend said to me that “ I deserve that” cause i dumped a guy after 3 months together, well maybe I really have to be ashamed with myself , he was really Mr right, the one everybody is looking for but I didn't feel the spark so i couldn't avoid to give up, I could lie to myself saying that everything was ok and keep going, I could n t lie to him, I made him cry and I felt so shit ...

I felt so blue after the text but at the end It's true What goes around comes all the way back around......